its not over

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrghhh.

berhenti berharap

I went thru my ext.hd and found my old collections of songs and found my most favourite malay song of all time :

Berhenti Berharap, Sheila on 7 :DDDDD



I loved Sephia too. Though this is the best song from them ever.

granny pannies

argh! internet's been a jerk lately!

the best piece and most effective of clothing in human history designed to denysuppress a woman's femininity?


Granny Panties.

I asked my mum to pick up a pair of knickers for me at Jusco (in great desperation) and she handed me a shopping bag containing pairs of what looked like granny panties. In beige.

it was gross.

me :Um. I think these are yours

mum :No, you asked me to buy them

me: ... thanks.


one of my mum's cruel little methods of enforcing celibacy on me.

oh.crap.

So i was forcibly woken up at 7am, 4 cruel hrs after I managed to sleep cuz of.. stuff I have to do before a certain class at 1pm [which are not assignments fyi] I wake up with barely 10% brain processing power choking and wheezing to start and I groggily make my way to my comp and after clicking through my usual routine, I realise [after clumsily smudging top coat all over my nails and fingers] and it dawned on me, the true... depth of the crap hole.. I have amazingly dugged myself in. I stared at my screen with bloodshot eyes. All brain activity ceased to halt. Dramatic revelation music echoed in my ears. My stomach churned. And I feel like utter crap. No words can describe it.

But before I elaborate on this crap I've made of myself, watch this insanely cute thing.


Awwww.

I digress. So.. I guess.. the moral of the story is.. nothing good ever comes out of waking up early in the ungodly hours of 7am! My life is in shambles! I just wanna go back to sleep and deny the reality. I really rather be chased by whales right now. T______T

oh yeah! 090909 happpyyy birthday HAU YEEEEEE

nervous!

la la la la la kerjalah

hari hari bosan dengan kerja ha ha

la la la.

cant wait to go back to college and work.

its been a while since i've last sewn! T_T i sure hope i dont screw up! wish me luck!

whale rolling

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I dreamt this crazy big ass whale surfaced and decided to roll-chase after me on the beach. It was relentless and it was scary.

achey

I jogged yesterday and now ache everywhere +_+ cant... move! ><;

I watched Girl Who Leaped Through Time. Its an awesome gorgeous anime-movie but I just didn't get the last part; "I'll wait for you in the future" "Yes, I'll be right there!" like whaaaaat? D: She'd be fossil by the time she reaches his era of time machines and stuffs! what kind of promise is that? I'm so disappointed he didnt stick around, the bugger! :(

heeeeeeeeeee

I



LOVE





SHOPPING!

+_+

Today i woke up at 10am, lounged around in bed till 11am, had cereal and milk for breakfast. messed around with the cat a bit. then bathed the dog, swept the porch. Cleaned the cat's litter box. Had lunch, watched an episode of Full Metal Alchemist, scrubbed the porch. Got pooped. My hands were red and blistery so I stopped. (pretty much half a year's worth of grime and dirt left to scrub off) Took a bath, cleaned up the mess the cat did on my bedroom floor. Watched Bride Wars. Did some research on the plushies. Looked at stuff I've to do over the holidays. Chatted. Went out to buy dinner. Back. Cleaned another mess the cat made. Stoned infront of comp. And now its 11:31pm.

It feels like I have not achieved anything and it feels shitty.

My 3 weeks holidays started yesterday, at 3pm. Yet I dont feel liberated, I dont really feel relieved. I continue to feel nervous, anxious, worried, burdened under the weight of impending responsibilities I'm gonna have to shoulder. The only light that shines throughout these 3 weeks is the fact I get to do what needs to be done when I want.

This term was a reality check and I'm wiser now, though I'm wishing it wasn't so. Hau Yee came over last night and we had a good chat on work, people relations. It's been long since we last had that kind of talk and I really missed it +_+ its kind of strengthening somehow. Like chicken soup for the weary soul.

I continue to hate the word 'chill'. Its my least favourite word in the whole english vocabulary. Hearing it takes an extra ounce of patience to pretend I didn't hear it.

Fsz, you bore a black miserable hole through my heart >(

Cleaning the house is like fighting a losing battle.

I think I miss my mom :' (

Sigh. I hate holidays.

But whatever lah. I'm just gonna work to make things happen this holiday. For once.

the last hurdle

gah. one more mountain to climb before I reach the finish line.

and its a mountain i'd so dearly love to just walk around -_-

but i cant ignore it :( cos if i do i'll have to see kwan win AGAIN D:

oh the horror.

fluffy and puffy are gonna get a new friend!! :D

and my feet are gonna meet a new pair of heels!! :D

heeheeheeeee happy thoughts!

now i'll start on AE